dear davis as you wanted me to be courageous to talk with you. i'm so stressed. there are many men from canada.uk.usa.new zealand.aus.etc. added on my web page, requested for my acceptance, but i'm not accepted any one of them, only you that i accepted to be my foreign friend at first i though i could practice my english, which never used over 30 years and someone that i can share and talk with sometimes. since we have been exchanging chat messages. i found that you are so nice and wonderful person that i've ever known. i felt good to know you and my heart is going to....but i won't let it goes any further. please think all over again. i'm not appropriated to you for many reasons. i don't want to disappoint or upset you. i'm considerate of your feeling. Life is so short. 17 years ago my sister died of ovarian cancer, two years later i had cancer. i don't really know whether i can live for how long. i totally lost my confident and self esteem. you can't spend all the rest of your life with someone much older than you who couldn't take care of you for long. it too selfish and it too late for me. please find someone who's right. i will be happy to see that, if you're happy ,i'm happy too.