After everything Emma told me and all the negative signs you gave me, I know I am setting myself up for humiliation and failure…
I just can not not do this, if I don’t do this, the wondering and the what if’s will kill me more than the rejection you might give me after this.
I know you are extremely anti-me, I can see with your behaviour, you don’t like or want to be around me…
and
I know 100% that I should not be doing this…
But….