OK TALK OTHER DAY. thank you that you like me! make me happy here. ok! like you too. but i SO SORRY i not know when me money , and be strong have power go trip Thai..... so sorry. but i must get energy and power now this month February i hope !!!! so i can get money and trip so soon. you understand ??? BUT not easy for me here too, to get things in order, my life in order!! get energy. power. not easy for me ! i dream and think much. and care my son too. and worry i find good work soon too .... i just think much , and dream.. not easy to tell all. just hope i be happy and find good woman , and good love and live together all life too. maybe is you. the good woman. but i must travel trip Thai. i want it!!! you know it. but fight the money! borrow. loan. so i must fight here , and take decisions here what to do! and not worry about work, job. but in 2 months must start look work. i think. i can not go home here dreaming too long time. too much. you see?? i am confused myself,. and think too much