Today was her idea...i am so sad. I want to be myself and hope she sees how much we still in love but I get hurt everyday am not able be normal self anymore. She makes me want to be perfect for her, love only her always, but i don't know how to do...she pull away too far not let me even talk or try... I lost my true love over something she wrong idea about. I love her always and never give up on her or turn away from her. But to her I am not important, I feel like i nothing to her... I want marry her and together be a family, I want share all life no secrets or lies... But maybe she only wants other now. And only want me around to make hurt. I do not want think that way about her, Nueng is the best person I met. We meant to be together I know. I ruined our life its all my fault