Strangely, he considers that he might have heard something similar before, but it was such an ethereal thought that he let it slide and went back to his memories. There was a moment he recollected uneasily, that he had thought that those words meant Dazai was rejecting him.
It turns out that what Dazai had meant was that he didn’t do flirtatious relationships with men, he did serious ones. Dazai had been so fierce making sure that Atsushi understood that and accepted it before they began formally dating that it still gave Atsushi fluttery feelings in his chest to that very moment.
His laugh catches in his throat when he thinks about how long ago that had been; three months if he counted the calendar correctly that morning.
It was afternoon right then and all he had thought about all day was their relationship and how that day it was about to progress to something more; he had been a mess of emotions all day thinking about; such a fond memory was the first thing not to make him go weak in the knees for all the wrong reasons...