one thing that you might want to know about my divorce. after marriage for many years. he had changed, always in a bad mood, often back home late (2 o'clock in the morning) dinner with a girl while i was in the hospital. i had lost my confident and self esteem after surgery. i was suffered and be patient with him for many years. but not courage enough to break up. until he asked me for divorce. i agreed without thinking. it hurt me so much.
so why he still lives in the same house with me. because that was a condition of the divorce,(until he has a new family) when he in a bad temper, he terrified me. i think he won't let me go so easily. (if i didn't love him, don't dare to love anyone else, which i never though i could.