It's ok, you have the right to be confused and non-trusting. It's true I acted cranky more than once and said "waste time." But I guess I was not trusting you in that moment. I suspected you were trying to get rid of me or something (by accusing me of being slow and busy). For some reason I was paranoid you were trying to start an argument with me. I have trust issues I guess. NOT with Ü, just my personality.
I remember that you are extremely sweet and generous-- more than I have ever known! So I am grateful for you sharing yourself with me like that