Tolerance and acceptance ***
Valid during many months: This influence will affect both your independence and well-earned recognition. Your tendency to play down your own achievements may now be strengthened leading you to feel somewhat depressed and inadequate. You tend to make great demands on yourself and you may fear that feelings of inadequacy and uncertainty may prevent you from fulfilling them. If your personality is more combative, your mood is likely to swing between aggressively wanting to protect your independence and freedom and times when you feel less capable which may shake your belief in your achievements and personal resolve.
You are probably frustrated by your inability to change your spots and overcome your inhibitions and feelings of inadequacy. You may feel that your vulnerability and uncertainty are holding you back and might prefer to forget that they exist. You may be reminded of some past event in which you felt rejected by your father or other figure of authority you looked up to. Such experiences can be hurtful and leave us feeling uncertain. You may have tried to use achievements to compensate for any feelings of inadequacy or erected strong emotional defences to prevent yourself from being hurt again.
However, during this time old wounds may reopen, calling your emotional defences into question. You now have the chance to break with old behaviour patterns and to confront any hurt you feel inside. Don't try to suppress your memories and vulnerability associated with them and try to accept them as being part of what you are. If you're able to do this you will develop a feeling of inner tranquillity which teaches us to accept that which we are unable to change. You will receive the recognition you long for when you feel able to accept your total being, including feelings of inadequacy and uncertainty